confused...

hmm...confused !
When I registered for this novel writting competetion I was excited, happy. But now I am a little bit worried about what am I going to write. should I write about my self and my day to day life? wait, eh, nah ! its boring, really my day to day life is really boring, and If I choose this option then first I'll have to seriously think about getting out my daily routine (or should I say rotten) life. No, really it is rotten, actually speaking.
I remember my childhood days, full of dreams, playful and fun. I even remember I was different in those days, my elder brother used to beat me whenever I teased him and I was like laughing, haa ha haa, haa ha haa.....no matter how hard he beats me, I'm laughing, It was a different kind of laughter, the one that is natural, belly laughter. I miss it very much these days. I think I lost it somewhere on the way, while I was busy making upto the expectations of my family, society, teacher, friends, etc. It feels as if I'm living for others and not for myself. now what !
The good news is that its not lost :)
The bad news is that I'm not able to realise the good news :)
That small child is still in there, that belly laughter is also there, but can't see them, why ? probably because they are all covered or dummped under the so called responsibilities, social status, job, girl friends, wife, money, etc. now all this things have crowded in front of the self. belly laughter & innocent child are also there but are left behind, they have been pushed back by these new comers because our society has givem more importance to them. Well I'll have to find someway to get through this crowd and get to the back where lies the real thing.
I am still wondering about the content of this novel....I'll keep writting as things come up...
good day.